I don't worry about N dieing from the anorexia anymore. He is doing fairly well now and I see some of his physical health returning. What I do worry about (and T confessed he is worried about too) is suicide.
N's emotional health is getting better, too. But, we're protecting him from so many things right now. Eventually, we'll have to ease him back into real life. Will he be able to take it? Will he relapse? How will he do when he is living on his own? I worry about the self-loathing spiraling out of control. That combined with frustration from the long-term recovery as well as the stresses from living, could lead to him becoming despondent and defeated. I just want to love him away from that possibility.